And so we had a soccer game yesterday... and I stupidly played on an empty stomach.... well not exactly empty, I had managed to have a little watermelon for breakfast, as I was running around getting ready (was running late).

Anyway, I have discovered that me being hungry = very grumpy Elisha, and I kinda took it out on the coach a little - well more than I normally would have at any rate.

You see, the way he was explaining the team's strategy, just left me feeling a little miffed, apparently, I was on the field only to help tire out the other team, and when they were tired... well then the good players would go on and score goals and I would come off. NOW THAT PISSED ME OFF! I work really hard at soccer. I am always at training - hell I was sick for two weeks and I still went, I have been to every game. I try to be there extra early, I do everything I am asked to do!!! and I get that shit!!!

I am just so frustrated about it. I feel like that I have to work twice as hard as everyone else, just to be allowed to play. And the stupid thing is, that I am not a bad player... I may not be the best, but I know what I am doing... and still I am the one who will likely be left out of a game etc.

Anyway after the game, I couldn't keep the black look off my face, and he noticed. :/ whether he knows the reason I felt so shitty was another matter, and I refused to tell him what the matter was when he asked as I don't want to rock the boat anymore than I already have.

It's stoopid to get so upset over it I know, but I just get so frustrated.